god fuck cock it was hot, so fucking hot, i can’t imagine you could imagine, it was Africa, Nigeria, the Tigris, the Nile, the very face of the sun and the mole that poked out from just under her billowy white sleeveless was driving me mad. or maybe, it was the youthful erection i sported, tied to my fucking thigh 16 fucking hours a fucking day, or maybe it was the way her ass cut deep grooves in my old 501’s, ancient and the color of skim milk( her boyfriend never guessing they had once been mine, as she would always be)like two small hands desperate to be held, licked, lapped, suckled, worshiped, fuck it was hot and so was she and so was i so painfully fucking young and hot and all i could do to keep my heavy hands off her ass and my tongue out of her every crevice was drink drink drink, fucking DRINK bourbon. straight from the freezer. bottle after bottle. bottle and hand, tongue and mouth and longing and my totally fucking isolate girlfriend, away, always away, her arrogant boyfriend more preening and beautiful and in love with himself than Narcissus himself, so vain and stupid, fucking all those older bitches leaving this poor little one to go dogie, off into the night, in my old cut-offs, in my sights, fuck, has it ever been that hot. i went off and the day went off the tracks.i had been asleep. passed out, step-mother cursing the ringing doorbell, throwing my own clothes at me, telling me the fucking hoodlums were back, knowing that i would be gone in a flash, back off into the burn, into the day( which had passed me by, had ended, now night). i could barely walk, but my lips were on fire. it was hot, prairie night hot and starless black. the car was ablaze with smoke and violence, no room no room anywhere, why did the awaken me? there was another bottle under my bed, i didn’t need there chalice or comfort, fuck there dumb asses and i made to turn to walk off when the miracle occurred; another set of lights tried to pull into our drive. it was her, in her new drop top. she had come, she had come for me. the boys, those damned dumbed thugs( not ever again so young, and never as dumb as i make them out to be) hit the gas and were off, knowing my ways and the lengths i would go to to get back inside that young thing. the sleep had made me wild with morning and love and sadness, the come down of coming sobriety, unwarranted and unwanted. it had given me a crazed edge, glued my mane of hair straight up into the night. fuck it was hot. so was she. i made for the door and her best friend made for the back seat. we made the bush party just before 11 pm, and seconds before the rain. all that heat and sex and booze and drunken desire and the sky split open, a black broken lip dousing the cock-stiff dreams of so many wild young things. i hadn’t a care. the rain came down. the friend dissappeared and the stereo played on and on. the bon-fire blazed red-hot against the moisture and with the top up, that car was like a greehouse, the windows dripped in torrents with the dew of our enthusiam i was
engorged
enraged, drunk again on warm beer( hers), drunk on young hot pink tongue(hers)
gripping at belt ends( mine), trying to set us both free, i sucked and kissed at her as Lenny preached to us about God and Love and black girls and we swayed motherfucker, we swayed, then there. it had been so hot that God had to have a little cry for all of us lovers. the door would occasionally be yanked open, by some wayward fools, looking for beer, for smoke, for her, for me, but we never disengaged not for a moment, until we did, in the coming of the early, very fucking early morning light. fuck. we were doomed, everyone knew. and so did we. the night had ended. the heat had broken and we were fucked, fucked over for doing only that which we wanted the most. she pulled that amazing ass up of the soaked seat, opened the door and ran out into the wet, waist-high grass just as the sun poked up. i fell again, back against the seat and took a long haul off the last of the warm beer. i let her run. we weren’t in love, we was just wasted in the heat, and now i needed to do a little running of my own…..